Journey With Patina

I’m so grateful that God gave me time to heal in my peaceful home over the past year of this journey. I’m learning to live and interact with people differently in all environments.

As I venture out into the public, I can see and feel the demonic spirits roaming around me. Let’s just say, I see and feel things that are really uncomfortable to my flesh. But God is my Comforter and My Companion, Jehovah-Shammah. I know that He is right there with me, regardless of where I am.

I’ve found that large crowds are not for me. I used to thrive in them. In one year, God has uprooted me from things of past, and renewed a new spirit and moral compass of courage, hope, resilience and perseverance that I can’t explain.

Recently, in past 30 days I’ve been to three public secular places. I was extremely uncomfortable, almost to the point of tears. I’m learning to walk in these places differently, knowing what is in there. I have to prepare myself for spiritual attacks prior to going. There’s always mischief and mishaps roaming about in the spirit. I can see it on people and it’s so natural to the human race that they don’t see it in themselves anymore. This is a sad time that we live in. The spirit that is floating around is one of survival in self and not in our Lord and Savior, the Son of Man and the Holy Ghost.

Today, I was studying Matthew 15:12-14. The Lord showed me that every plant NOT of God:

• Shall be uprooted
• The offspring’s will be uprooted
• When used by an individual shall be uprooted because they are blinded by its fakeness of what the plant appears to be.

Matthew 15:12-14, KJV

¹² Then came his disciples, and said unto him, Knowest thou that the Pharisees were offended, after they heard this saying?

¹³ But he answered and said, Every plant, which my heavenly Father hath not planted, shall be rooted up.

¹⁴ Let them alone: they be blind leaders of the blind. And if the blind lead the blind, both shall fall into the ditch.

In the three environments that I attended, I saw fake plants that may be uprooted if they don’t change their ways. I experienced the following in spiritual realm in those environments :

• I felt isolated, like I didn’t belong. In one instance, I recall telling my friend that I was extremely uncomfortable and at that time I hadn’t recognized the environment for what it was.
• I saw the irritation on people’s faces. Not that they meant to project it at me, but I could see their misery.
• I saw the spirit of I need attention. Everything from the busy body to the person who had to say something.
• I heard gossip. When people huddle, that’s the first sign. When you come around they stop talking. Need I say more.
• I saw fake smiles with survival spirits. There is no amount of clothing and make-up that can hide misery.
• I noticed that when people try to be kind and empathetic, they struggle because they can only see themselves. It’s shows when their spirits are uneasy around you. They can’t stay around you long. It’s too uncomfortable for them.
• I saw people (plants) just going through the motion without direction.

The lesson for me is that I was reminded of what and who I am in Christ Jesus. Focus on knowing the differences between the wheat and the chaff. As a child of My Lord, I may mingle amongst them, but I am not like them. I will continue to ask God to show me how to navigate through this process while I’m still learning. I don’t have all of the answers. The first step was for me to identify where I am in my walk with Christ. My desire is to be able to walk amongst His People and be a light and to bring them to Christ. As uncomfortable as it has been and it will continue to be, I’ve taken the first step.

𝓛𝓲𝓿𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓲𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓷𝓽:

One precious moment for me was taking selfies with my god babies!

🥹😍🌸🫶🏽

That is it for now. Regardless of where I am physically, I will remain steadfast and walk with the armor of God and the breastplate of salvation.

Continued Blessings!

𝓙𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓷𝓮𝔂 𝓦𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓟𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓪