• From the sound of the birds chirping at dawn, to the golden green dusting of pollen, spring is here in full blossom. One of my favorite moments: a warm cup of tea, the flavor is honey lemon ginseng green tea, while sitting on my screened in porch taking in Godโ€™s creation. Itโ€™s is simply delightful and peaceful.

    Spring is here!

    Listening to the birds morning chirp, the deer gazing, and watching squirrels run up the tree doing what nature does, being free to roam is something to adore and admire.

    I havenโ€™t always slowed down enough to notice these things. But today, I do. Iโ€™ve come to cherish these small, sacred moments of stillnessโ€”just me, God, my tea, and my journal. Itโ€™s a holy pause. A healing space. And it reminds me that where I am right now is exactly where Iโ€™m supposed to be.

    Humbling and healing at the same time. Only He can do that.

    Spring isnโ€™t just a seasonโ€”itโ€™s a message. A reminder that growth often comes after a long, dormant winter. If you find yourself in a strange or unfamiliar season, know this: itโ€™s not a mistake. Itโ€™s divine preparation. Every moment, even the hard ones, are part of Godโ€™s plan to strengthen you, mold you, and use you for His glory.

    Life can be strange so learn to take it all in. Itโ€™s no mistake you are where you are. Itโ€™s all part of His divine plan for you, so embrace it. Where you are now is the season where you should be to get to whatever is next. Itโ€™s a growth opportunity to learn from and become a better person to help with uplifting of His kingdom. God does not make mistakes.

    So embrace it. Embrace the pollen, the rain, the waiting, the blooming. This is your time to grow with the season. To lean into His peace. To trust the process. To simply beโ€”and be present.

    Wherever you are, grow thereโ€”God is not finished with you yet.

    XOXO

    ๐“™๐“ธ๐“พ๐“ป๐“ท๐“ฎ๐”‚ ๐“ฆ๐“ฒ๐“ฝ๐“ฑ ๐“Ÿ๐“ช๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ท๐“ช

  • Walking into Unexpected, Unwanted and Unresolved Emotions Everyday

    As I prepare for the next phase of my healing journey, I have no clue how my body will respond to radiation. This feeling of the ๐“พ๐“ท๐“ฎ๐”๐“น๐“ฎ๐“ฌ๐“ฝ๐“ฎ๐“ญ, ๐“พ๐“ท๐”€๐“ช๐“ท๐“ฝ๐“ฎ๐“ญ, ๐“ช๐“ท๐“ญ ๐“พ๐“ท๐“ป๐“ฎ๐“ผ๐“ธ๐“ต๐“ฟ๐“ฎ๐“ญ ๐“ฎ๐“ถ๐“ธ๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ผ of walking through the ๐“พ๐“ท๐“ด๐“ท๐“ธ๐”€๐“ท is exhausting.

    I donโ€™t want to do this. Iโ€™m doing this to save my life. Itโ€™s totally ๐“พ๐“ท๐”€๐“ช๐“ท๐“ฝ๐“ฎ๐“ญ. My pre-op for radiation is less than 24 hours away. Regardless of how many videos that I watch, or the stories that others share, itโ€™s doesnโ€™t get easier. ๐“˜๐“ฝ ๐“ฐ๐“ฎ๐“ฝ๐“ผ ๐“ถ๐“ธ๐“ป๐“ฎ ๐“ฎ๐”๐“ฑ๐“ช๐“พ๐“ผ๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ท๐“ฐ ๐“ซ๐”‚ ๐“ฝ๐“ฑ๐“ฎ ๐“ถ๐“ฒ๐“ท๐“พ๐“ฝ๐“ฎ. People just canโ€™t relate. On the journey of battling breast cancer, you donโ€™t go back to normal. You live in a state of the ๐“พ๐“ท๐”€๐“ช๐“ท๐“ฝ๐“ฎ๐“ญ ๐“พ๐“ท๐“ด๐“ท๐“ธ๐”€๐“ท. Eฬ Vฬ Eฬ Rฬ Yฬ Dฬ Aฬ Yฬ !ฬ 

    A Fatherโ€™s โค๏ธ

    Recently, in our community we lost a young woman to cancer. My dad did not tell me. He was there to support the family. The father is one of his friends. He didnโ€™t tell me probably because he wanted to keep my spirits lifted. (โ—•โ€ฟโ—•) I guess he can feel the ๐“พ๐“ท๐“ป๐“ธ๐“ผ๐“ธ๐“ต๐“ฟ๐“ฎ๐“ญ ๐“ฎ๐“ถ๐“ธ๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ผ that I have. My dad has been there for me and I canโ€™t thank him enough. You are probably thinking, heโ€™s your parent he should. Unfortunately, itโ€™s not true for so many nowadays. Iโ€™m eternally grateful to my heavenly Father for giving me an earthly father like my dad. Lord, I thank you.

    A Fatherโ€™s โค๏ธ

    Trusting in the Salvation of the Lord

    As I continue to walk into the ๐“พ๐“ท๐“ฎ๐”๐“น๐“ฎ๐“ฌ๐“ฝ๐“ฎ๐“ญ for radiation, Iโ€™ll lead with prayer and praise. Psalm 13 is a simple prayer and praise. God just wants us to come to Him, His way.

    I donโ€™t know what the next few months will bring, all I can do is trust Him. My prayer is that I donโ€™t have the side effects that many have. Psalm 13: 5-6 is like music to my ears. I trust His promises. Amen

    Until next time!

    ๐“ง๐“ž๐“ง๐“ž

    ๐“™๐“ธ๐“พ๐“ป๐“ท๐“ฎ๐”‚ ๐”€๐“ฒ๐“ฝ๐“ฑ ๐“Ÿ๐“ช๐“ฝ๐“ฒ๐“ท๐“ช

    Psalm 13
    Psalm 13 (Continued)

  • ๐—ก๐—ผ ๐—ก๐—ฒ๐˜„ ๐—ฌ๐—ฒ๐—ฎ๐—ฟ ๐—ฟ๐—ฒ๐˜€๐—ผ๐—น๐˜‚๐˜๐—ถ๐—ผ๐—ป๐˜€ ๐—ณ๐—ผ๐—ฟ ๐—บ๐—ฒโ€ผ๏ธ

    2025 is about being mindful and being present in the moment without judgement while being authentic. Iโ€™m starting the year out fighting breast cancer. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that I would write that and share it publicly. The closer I get to Him, the more He wants me to share and help others. So, thatโ€™s what Iโ€™m going do. 

    As I look forward, Iโ€™ll continue to be led spiritually. Being mindful is an essential element of being led. Being aware of my emotions and feelings have really helped me to understand the power that I have within to overcome obstacles and live freely. I have to be in a state of receiving and hearing His voice before I feel confident about sharing. Sometimes, the messages that He sends are ๐“ป๐“ช๐”€! โ˜บ๏ธ So, get ready. 

    I’m a first-time blogger and I’m clueless. My prayer is that I’ll find the people that need support so that I can help them along the way. In 2025, Iโ€™ll be experimenting on social media, so be nice me. ๐Ÿคฃ I have no idea what direction Heโ€™s sending me. I’m so ready for the journey. 

    Yours Truly,

    Journey With Patina

  • ๐’ฏ๐’ฝ๐’พ๐“ˆ ๐“…๐’ถ๐“‡๐“‰ โ„ด๐’ป ๐“‚๐“Ž ๐“๐’พ๐’ปโ„ฏ โ„ ๐’ธ๐’ถ๐“๐“, ๐›๐ž๐ข๐ง๐  ๐ญ๐ซ๐š๐ง๐ฌ๐ฉ๐š๐ซ๐ž๐ง๐ญ!

    Some days all I want to do is disappear from the reality of my situation. Iโ€™m currently in treatment for breast cancer. Over the past few months, Iโ€™ve found peace in journaling my journey. Iโ€™ve always journaled. But lately, Iโ€™ve been more intentional about it. 

    I literally picked up a small notebook from the Dollar Tree and started writing. I used to be picky, but in the moment I didn’t care. All I wanted to do was express myself and my feelings. Needless to say, it’s been such a beautiful and peaceful experience. 

    God has given me so much joy. I’m grateful for the little things. 

    Honestly, some days I donโ€™t know where to start. I have learned to start with thanking Him for the simple things like what Iโ€™m grateful for in that moment. 

    This is my first blog and it feels really good to get it out!

    Thank you for supporting me along this journey!

    ๐“ง๐“ž๐“ง๐“ž

    Patina 

    ๐—๐—ผ๐˜‚๐—ฟ๐—ป๐—ฒ๐˜† ๐˜„๐—ถ๐˜๐—ต ๐—ฃ๐—ฎ๐˜๐—ถ๐—ป๐—ฎ

  • ๐“”๐“ฟ๐“ฎ๐“ป๐”‚๐“ธ๐“ท๐“ฎ’๐“ผ ๐“ฎ๐”๐“น๐“ฎ๐“ป๐“ฒ๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ฌ๐“ฎ ๐”€๐“ฒ๐“ฝ๐“ฑ ๐“ฌ๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“ถ๐“ธ๐“ฝ๐“ฑ๐“ฎ๐“ป๐“ช๐“น๐”‚ ๐“ฒ๐“ผ ๐“ญ๐“ฒ๐“ฏ๐“ฏ๐“ฎ๐“ป๐“ฎ๐“ท๐“ฝ. For me I stayed focused by doing three things that helped me mentally: I got up and moved, maintained a healthy diet (the best that I could), and spent time journaling and talking to God. 

    Got Up and Moved

    As I progressed through my chemotherapy journey, it became more and more difficult to get dressed and get out the house. Some days it was all I could do to sit on my back porch. On days when I wasnโ€™t up to it, I would exercise by walking up and down my steps a few times. On better days, Iโ€™d head to the beach to sit and people watch while enjoying the sounds of the ocean. Something as simple as a walk to curb and back is better than doing nothing. Itโ€™s important to get up and move to avoid depression. 

    Maintained a Healthy Diet

    I lost my taste buds during chemotherapy. Anyone that knows me knows that I LOVE food. Well, that all changed for me. Everything tasted nasty except for beef, vegetables and sweets. I found myself eating a lot of eggs and bacon. Days 3-7 after chemotherapy I could barely eat anything. ๐‘ฉ๐’–๐’• ๐‘ฎ๐’๐’…. I ate vegetables and potatoes on those days. I added peppers and rosemary to add flavor to foods. I learned to eat to live. This made meal preparation challenging but necessary.

    ๐‘ฏ๐’†๐’“๐’†’๐’” ๐’๐’๐’† ๐’๐’‡๐’Ž๐’š ๐’”๐’•๐’‚๐’‘๐’๐’† ๐’”๐’‚๐’๐’‚๐’…. No dressing. Salt, pepper and lime juice. ๐Ÿ˜‹

    A simple salad!

    Journaled My Thoughts and Feeling 

    Some days, I didnโ€™t know what I was going to write. I learned to start with being grateful for His grace and the blessing of life. To be able to fight the disease is better than what some others are experiencing. 

    ๐‘ด๐’š ๐’‹๐’๐’–๐’“๐’๐’‚๐’๐’Š๐’๐’ˆ ๐’๐’๐’„๐’‚๐’•๐’Š๐’๐’ ๐’˜๐’‚๐’” ๐’†๐’’๐’–๐’‚๐’๐’๐’š ๐’‚๐’” ๐’Š๐’Ž๐’‘๐’๐’“๐’•๐’‚๐’๐’• ๐’‚๐’” ๐’•๐’‰๐’† ๐’‚๐’„๐’•๐’–๐’‚๐’ ๐’‹๐’๐’–๐’“๐’๐’‚๐’๐’๐’š ๐’‘๐’“๐’๐’„๐’†๐’”๐’”. From the oceanfront to the recliner in my bedroom. I found solitude in quiet places where I could sit and BE! 

    ๐‘ณ๐’Š๐’”๐’•๐’†๐’, I journaled about everything. I wrote about my feelings, different meals, the side effects of chemotherapy and how it made me feel, my support system, how grateful I am, Gods grace and His Word, wrote prayers, wrote about my fears, and the list goes on. Journaling is my therapy, so I get it in. On the days where I struggle, I ask Him to lead me. I literally wrote that in my journal.

    Thanks for listening to me. Until next time, be blessed.

    Your Truly,

    ๐‘ฟ๐‘ถ๐‘ฟ๐‘ถ

    ๐‘ฑ๐’๐’–๐’“๐’๐’†๐’š ๐‘พ๐’Š๐’•๐’‰ ๐‘ท๐’‚๐’•๐’Š๐’๐’‚

  • 20 Must Have Items for Chemotherapy

    Treatment for breast cancer can be extremely overwhelming. It can be physically, emotionally and financially challenging as well. Thereโ€™s a lot to keep up with including doctor appointments, medications, meal planning, managing symptoms and basic necessities that make your life a little easier. Iโ€™ve decided to share 20 items that helped me during chemotherapy treatment. Iโ€™ve also included a link to make it easier for you to purchase and put together a care package for someone who may be going chemotherapy treatment. 

    Please know that chemotherapy patients spend a lot of time managing symptoms and that alone is exhausting. Below are 20 things that I used throughout my treatment. You can grab some of the items that I used from my Amazon store: https://amzn.to/4h7q9rF

    1. The Companion Bible – I canโ€™t imagine not having the Word near me. Many days all I wanted to do is bask in His presence and hear from Him. Spending time with God is non-negotiable for me.  As a believer, I couldnโ€™t have made it without His hand on me. Find something motivation to keep you inspired. Some days can be really difficult.
    2. Journal – Daily journaling was my therapy and lifeline. I found myself capturing every aspect of my journey. Brain fog is a real thing so I needed to write it down to keep up with my feelings, side effects of chemotherapy, my to do list, and everything else that came to mind. I captured all of my side effects so that I could share them with my doctor. Because of the brain fog sometimes I forget what has happened to me. Journaling has helped me keep with everything that means something to me.
    3. Hats for when my hair falls out – Some of us have to deal with the lost of hair during chemotherapy. It was winter time when I was in treatment so my head stayed cold. I had friends who gave me hats and I picked up a few of my own. I even grabbed a few styles so that I would switch it up. Some people choose wigs, but that’s a personal decision. Wigs aren’t for me.
    4. Anti-nausea medicine – Nausea can be a side effect that some people experience. For me, as I progressed through the treatment nausea became a issue. It was an uphill battle for me, but I made it through. Some are fortunate to not have to deal with nausea. Unfortunately, that wasn’t me. If you know someone who is struggling with nausea direct them to speak with their doctor. They can prescribe medication to make it more tolerable. 
    5. Soft toothbrush – My gums where extremely sensitive during chemotherapy. My physician suggested that I get a soft bristle toothbrush. It was the best decision ever. Itโ€™s amazing how a toothbrush can make such a huge impact on how you feel on a daily basis.
    6. Essential Oils: Two essential oils that I used often were peppermint and tea tree oils. Early on in chemotherapy I started to experience mouth sores. I learned to gargle in peppermint oil. I put two drops of peppermint oil in a cup of warm water and gargled. I never had that issue again. I would gargle the first three days of treatment and it worked like a charm for me. When my finger nails began to get fragile and turn black so I started putting tea tree oil on my fingernails and toenails two times a day. It helped. Anytime I had a new side effect, I’d let my doctor know. 
    7. Nasal Gel – Dry nose was a thing for me during treatment. I used Ayr Saline Nasal Gel. It worked perfectly.
    8. Lip Balm – Treatment will dry out your skin and other things. I found a chopstick that kept my lips moisturized. Listen, there’s nothing worse than dry lips when you wake up in the morning.
    9. Gloves – I kept gloves and used them for multiple reasons. Primarily to wash dishes. I found that after treatment my hands would burn while washing dishes. I also used gloves to clean my home. Especially when my nails became brittle. Also, caregivers should keep gloves available to protect themselves from the toxins that they may be exposed to when cleaning up behind someone who is in treatment.
    10. Bidet – I absolutely love my bidet. One of the side effects of treatment can be loose bowels. The irritation that comes from using toilet paper will have you extremely uncomfortable. This by far is one of my favorite additions to my bathroom and household. 
    11. Over The Counter Medication: Preparation H and Imodium A-D I kept on standby. The side effect of irregular loose bowels may put you in position to need both of these. Please follow your doctorโ€™s instructions on how and when to take the Imodium A-D and when to head to the emergency room. Dehydration can happen easily. Donโ€™t wait, please follow their medical advice. When you need these two items, you need them immediately. 
    12. Blanket – Blankets, blankets and more blankets. I have them all of my house. My body temperature was all over the place. I made it a priority to keep them clean. When you go for treatment Iโ€™d recommend that you take one with you. The body goes through so many extremes when undergoing treatment. Most treatment facilities have blankets. But they arenโ€™t as soft and cozy as your own. 
    13. Water Bottle/Tumbler – I canโ€™t say enough about staying hydrated. Honestly, my first treatment I struggled because I didnโ€™t know what to expect. Thereafter, I learned to travel with water wherever I went. Drinking water and beverages to help add electrolytes back into my body was critical to preventing dehydration. Drop off or send a case of water to someone who is in treatment. Trust me, they will appreciate it. Every little bit helps. 
    14. Fuzzy Cozy Socks – On the days when I didnโ€™t feel well, thereโ€™s nothing better than cozy socks while I rested. I couldnโ€™t get enough of these. There are days where. I didnโ€™t leave the home. My cozy socks, soft pajamas, my journal and my recliner was were I stayed. 
    15. Lotion – Chemotherapy dried out my skin. Moisturizing daily was a necessity. Try to find a good lotion that will do the body good. Remember, the treatment is killing good and bad bacteria. Staying moisturized should be a priority.
    16. Brow Liner – I lost my eyebrows and I didnโ€™t like how I looked. Everyday I would draw my eyebrows on so that I look somewhat normal. I didnโ€™t realize how important eyebrows were to me. Without them I felt incomplete. 
    17. Comfy Pajamas – I spent a lot of time in pajamas when recovering from treatment. I can honestly say for the first time in my life I wore them every day after treatment. It was important for me to feel comfortable while dealing with the struggles of chemotherapy and its side effects. My favorites are the Cuddl Duds brand. A friend introduced me to them, and now they are the only thing that I want to wear. You can find them at Khols. Wait until they go on sale and use Khols cash. They are so comfortable and can double as long johns under your clothes. They are so comfy.
    18. Adult Pampers – Some days it is what it is. Running out to store takes on a whole new meaning when you canโ€™t make it to the bathroom in time. Iโ€™ll just leave it there. 
    19. Portable Fan – Depending on where you are in your life, and how your body responds to chemotherapy, hot flashes may become a thing or become more common. I had a conversation with my doctor and they prescribed medication to help me during treatment. However, my portable fans are a life saver. I have them everywhere: in the kitchen, by the bed, my office pointed to towards my desk, near my recliner, and in my family room. Literally, I have a fan in every where.
    20. Vitamins – In my personal opinion my daily vitamin regiment helped. It included daily vitamins and Amla Fruit Powder (Vitamin C) which my doctor approved for me to take during chemotherapy. Every doctor is different, so please take their advice NOT mine. Iโ€™m just sharing what worked for me. 

    Everyoneโ€™s experience with chemotherapy treatment is different. Depending on the diagnosis and treatment protocols everyoneโ€™s symptoms and side effects may vary. I wanted to share some of the things that helped me along my chemotherapy journey and things that helped me along the way.

    We need help and encouragement. Sometimes, our pride will not allow us to ask for help. If you really want to help someone, just send them a care package and include a few of these items. Trust me, they will be grateful for anything. You’ll find a consolidated list of items for your convenience: https://amzn.to/4h7q9rF

    I hope this helped.

    Yours Truly,

    ๐‘ฑ๐’๐’–๐’“๐’๐’†๐’š ๐‘พ๐’Š๐’•๐’‰ ๐‘ท๐’‚๐’•๐’Š๐’๐’‚

  • Today I decided to head to the beach, to relax and take in the salt air and the sounds of the ocean waves.

    A little slice of heaven.

    God reminded me that itโ€™s important to take time to breathe and take in the moment.  He sat me down and Iโ€™m grateful for moments like these: silence and peace in the midst of a storm.  Iโ€™m learning to embrace the time that He has given to me, to relax my mind and to embrace this moment.

    This journey that God has me on, has been nothing short of amazing.  Let me tell you, battling breast cancer, dealing with the downsizing of the federal government (as a federal contractor), and the stress of living in this crazy world can feel overwhelming at times. But, the God that I serve told me to lean on Him.  Iโ€™m leaning like never before.  As Iโ€™m writing this blog, all I know is that I will continue to read the Word of God, listen to Him and find peace and comfort in Jehovah. 

    If you decide to follow me on this journey, youโ€™ll learn that I love the Lord, Iโ€™m a beach bum who loves to travel, and Iโ€™m a foodie.  Iโ€™m blessed to live less than an hour from the Virginia Beach oceanfront.  Today, as I write this blog, Iโ€™m sitting at one of my favorite places for lunch listening to the waves crash, and spending time with God. So peaceful.

    Subscribe to my blog, as I plan to share:

    1. What God reveals to me as I learn more about Him.
    2. My travel experiences as a beach bum and everything between.
    3. Food experiences because Iโ€™m a foodie, so who knows what I might share. Everything from gardening, to canning, to sharing my favorite foods and new food experiences.
    4. Leaving through breast cancer treatment, my healing journey and life after.

    For now, thatโ€™s all folks. Thanks for listening. Until next time, smooches.๐Ÿ˜˜

    XOXO

    Journey with Patina 

    My lunch today: Crab Cake sandwich and a wedge salad. Yummy๐Ÿคค