Journey With Patina

As I prepare for the next phase of my healing journey, I have no clue how my body will respond to radiation. This feeling of the 𝓾𝓷𝓮𝔁𝓹𝓮𝓬𝓽𝓮𝓭, 𝓾𝓷𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓭, 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓾𝓷𝓻𝓮𝓼𝓸𝓵𝓿𝓮𝓭 𝓮𝓶𝓸𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼 of walking through the 𝓾𝓷𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀𝓷 is exhausting.

I don’t want to do this. I’m doing this to save my life. It’s totally 𝓾𝓷𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓭. My pre-op for radiation is less than 24 hours away. Regardless of how many videos that I watch, or the stories that others share, it’s doesn’t get easier. 𝓘𝓽 𝓰𝓮𝓽𝓼 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓮 𝓮𝔁𝓱𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓫𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓶𝓲𝓷𝓾𝓽𝓮. People just can’t relate. On the journey of battling breast cancer, you don’t go back to normal. You live in a state of the 𝓾𝓷𝔀𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓾𝓷𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀𝓷. E̠V̠E̠R̠Y̠D̠A̠Y̠!̠

A Father’s ❤️

Recently, in our community we lost a young woman to cancer. My dad did not tell me. He was there to support the family. The father is one of his friends. He didn’t tell me probably because he wanted to keep my spirits lifted. (◕‿◕) I guess he can feel the 𝓾𝓷𝓻𝓸𝓼𝓸𝓵𝓿𝓮𝓭 𝓮𝓶𝓸𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼 that I have. My dad has been there for me and I can’t thank him enough. You are probably thinking, he’s your parent he should. Unfortunately, it’s not true for so many nowadays. I’m eternally grateful to my heavenly Father for giving me an earthly father like my dad. Lord, I thank you.

Trusting in the Salvation of the Lord

As I continue to walk into the 𝓾𝓷𝓮𝔁𝓹𝓮𝓬𝓽𝓮𝓭 for radiation, I’ll lead with prayer and praise. Psalm 13 is a simple prayer and praise. God just wants us to come to Him, His way.

I don’t know what the next few months will bring, all I can do is trust Him. My prayer is that I don’t have the side effects that many have. Psalm 13: 5-6 is like music to my ears. I trust His promises. Amen

Until next time!

𝓧𝓞𝓧𝓞

𝓙𝓸𝓾𝓻𝓷𝓮𝔂 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓟𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓷𝓪